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So here I am...laying on my bed fresh out of the shower in my rob....it's 2:28 pm. I have been cleaning and working out all morning and the baby is down for her nap. I am trying to convince myself to get up and finish getting ready but it's just not happening. All I want to do is fall asleep...I don't know what will come first though??? Fall asleep or cry! :( things have not been easy lately. #1 I am breastfeeding. So my hormones are all crazy! #2 I recently lost a friend over some stupid bachelorette party. #3 my husband can't seem to get that I need help around the house and can't do everything myself. #4 my business is going crazy right now! I have lists a mile long of things I need to do, I just can't seem to get around to half of it. I am laying in my bed just thinking of staying in it the rest of the day....but we all know as a mom that won't happen! 

Being MOM!

I am a MOM! It is crazy to think that the wait is now over and she is here! I am totally in love with her! Everyday revolves around her. I get up in the morning and she is right by my side. She has been such an awesome baby so far! She mostly sleeps through the night with some occasional food times. She eats about every 3 hours or so.

Muttley

Dog Training: So I started the training of another puppy. He is amazing! I am shocked at how much he follows direction and how he learns behaviors so fast! I couldn't have asked for a better pup. Jackson has also taught him a lot like how to hang out in the back yard with out screaming bloody murder to come in. The first night that we had him he slept in the crate all night without waking us up once. We are so blessed!

Pregnancy: I am 35 weeks and 5 days! I am getting soooo big....it hurts to do pretty much anything at this point. I only have a few more shifts at St. Johns before I go on maternity leave. We had two amazing Baby Showers!! The first was thrown by Becky (Carlos' mom) and the second was thrown by my mom and sister Catelynn. I am super sad that we didn't get any pics of the food table because it was BEAUTIFUL! I might have to send out a blast on facebook requesting any pics taken.

Cali Pals

So this weekend Carlos and I are driving out to pick up a new F2 Goldendoodle puppy to train for a child who has Autism. I am overwhelmed right now with people who want me to take their puppies! It's crazy! Christy from Daisy Hills is trying to get me to take one of her discounted pups right now as well as Jackson's breeder is trying to get me to help with Trudy's placement which is hard for me because if I wasn't training dogs I would totally take her! We loved her!

I am nervous about starting a new puppy with the pain that I have been in the past week. Dealing with a new puppy is no fun! Hopefully it is a good pup and won't be too annoying! They seem pretty calm, but we will see.

Cali Pals is really taking off and the timing is so wrong! I just wish I had all the time and energy in the world! lol My friend from work even suggested that I stop working at St. Johns so that I can really pursue my business. It's probably a good idea....but I don't know yet.

32 Weeks Pregnant!

Thursday: I can't believe that the 32 week mark is here! I am shocked at how fast time flies. Last Thursday I ended up having to go into labor and delivery because I was feeling a lot of pressure and pain in my pelvic area. It started on Wednesday night after work. I couldn't even cross my legs because I was in so much pain. I went to bed early that night to try and rest it. On Thursday morning I went about my usual day without any pain at first. Jackson and I went to agility where I run around pretty much the entire 1hour and 15 min. I was exhausted by the time it was over and in a lot of pain. I went to my grandparents house where I met up with my mom to go into "Sprouts" an organic grocery store. I could hardly walk when I went to get out of the car, it was the most painful shopping experience ever! So we got the stuff we needed and left and on the way home I said I should have called the doctors office to see what they would have to say about my pain. So when we got back to Nana and Papa's house I got on the phone right away with Kaiser. They transferred me over to labor and delivery and asked me to come in right away because I shouldn't be in this much pain this early on in my pregnancy. So we went in and I had to be put in a hospital gown and everything. I was so scared that I was going to give birth by just being there and hearing all the other women who were in the same room as I was having contractions. Carlos rushed home from San Francisco and came and waited with me and my mom. We were there for a total of 3 hours. Finally we got to go home and I was so exhausted by this point! I could hardly keep my eyes open. 

The last few days: I have now been resting for a few days. It is so hard for me to stay in bed or at home alone all day. Today I finally got out of the house a little bit, my mom and I went to Target to grab the curtains for the baby's room. Now Carlos needs to just put them up. 

Money: We are super low on money every single month and it is so hard for me to deal with. There are all these things that I want to buy for Scarlett's room but it seems like we are never caught up on the money situation. Every month it's a struggle! I just feel so bad leaving it all on Carlos' shoulders and I am not really sure what we are going to do when I am no longer able to work at St. Johns. I mean I am training dogs....but that doesn't start up until next month and even then I won't be making any money until the lady gets her settlement from the court. It's so frustrating! 

Scarlett's Room: Scar's room is almost finished. This last weekend we put up the crown molding, and the ceiling fans. They both look amazing! I just bought some curtains that Carlos needs to hang when he gets a chance. I am trying to have everything completed by the time of the baby showers so that everyone can come up and see. 

Jackson: I have decided since last Thursday that I will no longer be doing agility with Jackson! :( I am super sad about it but we don't have the money and I just don't have the energy any more. I gave him a hair cut today....he needed it so badly! 

Weight: 192, up 22 pounds. I can still fit into my pre-pregnancy jeans! :)
Cravings: Sweet Stuff
Excersizing: I was until just this week.
Feeling kicks: YES! OMG! She is crazy! 

Wyatt

My mom decided to get a puppy for my dad for Christmas. So we went and got him a puppy from a working ranch. He was adorable!!! Didn't cry all the way home. Was a good boy! My parents are in Disneyland so I got the pleasure of watching him this week. At first him and Jackson were so excited to have each other, but after a couple of days Jackson is being really jealous and weird! He is starting to act up! Like barking at the neighbors dogs and stuff....which he never did! Lol Wyatt goes home today which I am actually going to miss him! 

26 Weeks Pregnant!

So now that I have been in my second trimester for a few months (next week @ 27 weeks I will be in my 3rd)  I have been feeling so much better. Second trimester was a breeze compared to the first. I am able to eat again which shows since I have gained 13 pounds! :) No stretch marks yet!!! Thank God! I am able to be active again going to the gym and doing a lot of Christmas Shopping! Christmas is just around the corner. Yesterday marked the day that we only have 100 days left! :) Super excited! Things that I have noticed that are changing this week is a lot of back pain, like siatica. Carlos' parents got us sharks tickets and I could hardly walk....but I dragged myself to go anyways. We almost got all of our Christmas shopping done yesterday, we just have a couple more things to grab.

A couple of nights ago I felt the baby move in my stomach! It was a crazy feeling....I couldn't believe it. It woke me up from almost falling asleep and I knew at that exact moment that I had felt my precious little baby! LOVE!

The Suburban

This past weekend Carlos and I made the decision to purchase a Suburban for me to drive. I loved the idea at first but when I started driving it around I just felt like such a MOM! It's crazy how much you have to change to become a mother. I mean I could have driven my little car but I just think that it would have been so uncomfortable for me and the baby. The suburban has 3 tvs and is super nice! We are lucky that Uncle Pat and Aunt Sandra gave us such a good deal!

The Cabin

This weekend me, Carlos, and Jackson went up to the cabin with Becky, Isaac, Kevin, Aunt Peggy, Jonny, Joanna, and Rufus. We drove up on Saturday morning around 10am and went straight to the cabin. We then went to dinner at Snow Shoe! YUM! I had a tiny sip of the apricot beer that they have there because it's my favorite! Sunday which is today we went to the lake and the guys went jet skiing....I couldn't because I am pregnant which totally sucks because I love jet skiing! :/ But I have to make sacrifices. There is always next year. :)